2025 has probably been the hardest of my life. it’s been a year of grandiose loss and significant change. a year that still breaks me upon reflection.   it started at the end of 2024. for reasons that go beyond what i wish to share online, i was conflicted about playing one more year at a club i had ingrained myself into for the past 6 seasons. a routine surgery to clean out my knee and trim my meniscus turned into a stern warning about the severity of my arthritis – a warning i was not...

today is not a good day. yesterday wasn’t either. i think that’s what happens when you’re finally left to sit with your sadness – there’s...

do your feelings ever just hit you all at once? i suppose when you’re constantly surrounded by people, you suppress your feelings. not...